到最后我可以不爱了，你却说舍不得。

title: what happened to us? we used to be so perfect...
date: Monday, January 25, 2010
time:9:41 PM

how true is this? you judge. kind of meaningful i guess. found this on facebook.

till we learn the difference between holding hands and falling in love.

learn that kisses dont always means something.

promises can be broken as quickly as they were made.

&& goodbyes are really forever.

boy, i hope this is the last time. im sick and tired of goodbyes.

im sick and tired of crying in the night when no one is around.

it seems that you have changed for the better and i hope it will last.

you know that in you heart,

i love you too much to let you go.

Labels: i seen friends falling in and out of love. wat is LOVE ??

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title: LOVE, is so vulnerable.
date: Saturday, January 23, 2010
time:5:14 PM

sometimes I don't know why can't a person stay faithful to their partner, sometimes I wonder how LOVE can make a person feel so much pain and sadness, and sometimes I just dun understand why can't human leave without LOVE.

Love doesn't have a fixed formula or mixture. at the right time, you might meet the wrong person or at the wrong time, you will meet the right one. It just hurt so much to love someone and yet that person simply don't care. And there is really nothing you can do about it.

I-L-O-V-E-Y-O-U

8 letters , 3 words , 1 meaning. It can bring you to heaven and pull you down to hell. how nice.

Labels: how hard is it to carry on from a broken love? cant time really heal everything? can everything change?

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date: Friday, January 8, 2010
time:11:55 AM

long long time since i last blogged. Yes, holidays ended. I dont really feel any change, still on holiday mood till now. Things start to go haywire. I start to really be concern about my academics. I wonder what I've been doing for e past 1 year. Getting upset over relationship things, putting focus on wrong things, screwed the whole year.

Though things are getting better now, its not picking up fast enough. the only nice part is now i have my family and friends there to help me. Giving me the strength to hold on. I seriously feel I'm not suitable for Polytechnic. Wrong choice. But too late, now got to start to focus on the right things, reset my priorities.

boy ahs , its been a month alr. things are really going on well for us. i hope this will continue and never end. 121209. ILU.

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title: opportunity cost.
date: Sunday, December 20, 2009
time:1:57 PM

i dun know wat to say. mixed feelings. angry to the max. so this is how u are going to treat me. i dun need you to be there for me when things happen because i chose this myself but i din expect this kind of attitude from u. total disappointment. everything is so wrong. i wanna drink. cry. faint. i wanna everything to go back to the norm, wats so difficult? just because now i have him? thanks boy, for letting me know our friendship is this fragile. thanks alot.

Labels: need to cry.

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title: LONG LONG TIME SINCE I LAST BLOGGED (:
date: Wednesday, December 16, 2009
time:11:10 PM

long time since i last blogged.
yes, exams are over, holidays are here.
1st week of holidays about to end.
packed schedule this week ^^ tiring.
still lack of sleep.
i wonder if im sleeping abit too much ahs . lols!
watch late night shows, addicted to temptations of wife ! nice show.
gona finished it before school reopen. ^^

went to birdpark with BUDDY & her company for some hollywood dino thing.
not too interesting. kind of waste time.
things start to brighten up abit when we sat down and chit chat.
buddy's got nice working companion. and shes a happy girl. we both know y (:
went over to DAVE hse to camp after the dino thingy.
chit chat, play cards and eat.
slacked till about 10 then homed ^^

buddy , m sorry that i aint truthful to u in the 1st place :x but thanks for letting me know tat you will be there for me whenever i need you . love u loads man ^^ 210709.

Labels: i will always be here always when u need me ^^

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title: 18 days.
date: Saturday, December 5, 2009
time:12:40 AM

its been long time since i last updated my blog. hasnt been too busy this whole week cause buddy was out of town, no one to accompany me. nevertheless, i still keep myself occupied with loads of activity. :x

monday: skipped afternoon lesson and went over to yunsheng's house to slack, chit chat and watch shows. his dog wasn't so friendly. :x so gotta be locked out. bad dog! homed at around 7plus, had dinner then slacked. as usual uhs ~! slept at around 1 plus i think.

tuesday: lesson at 10, went. intended to skip again but nowhere to go so stayed in school with 牛奶 (: lesson ended at 5. home aftermath.

wednesday: lesson at 9, was nearly late. luckily roz they all waited for me (: bought ice chocolate, slack in lecture theatre. ^^ break, then MOB then met up with mingshu & hongyuan for pool. played till 6plus then headed home with mingshu. hahas! met up with buddy after dinner and slacked abit at dave's house. home at around 10.

thursday: overslept so din went for lesson, woke up at around 9 plus and went over to poly clinic to take MC. :x went over to dave house again. slept thru the afternoon after lunch. :x woke up at about dinner time, had dinner then played cards. poor aloy got his hand whacked till all red & swollen . lols!

today: short day, nearly din wake up in time to go for CRS. eventually i did, was late though. met up with 牛奶, as usual, then bought ice chocolate and headed to class. slacked at food heaven during break time, prepared our speech. presentation was fairly welldone during IDEAs and went off at around 430 for K session (: had loads of fun with buddy, dave, aloy, dick & yingxi ^^ homed at around 10.

yeahs, mst is coming, means holiday is also coming. birthday is on monday, wonder how many will remember. but its on exam week so no celebration and no plan. 1st time in my life birthday during exam period. wth.. suey.. :x

although i miss you but im getting over you soon. it has been 18 days without you and im getting on fine. im learning to live without you.

Labels: i need to lose those fats and get extensions done.

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title: its time to say goodbye.
date: Wednesday, November 25, 2009
time:1:32 AM

yes, its going 2 and im still wide awake. okays, maybe not really wide awake. tired also liaos. hmmm, sometimes, life seriously suck full time. backstabbers, sluts, bitch, bastards everywhere. can seem to dispose them away, kick them out of my life. i just had enough. cant you all just be a man and stand out to talk ? wanna hide behind phone, or computer. what a loser. lowly life forms.

life is resuming to normal i guess. not so much of the heart pain & not so much of missing you anymore. time is healing me bit by bit and im slowly forgetting you. our relationship. yes, im still not ready for a relationship yet. im just not matured enough yet. you taught me lots of things. you gave me the most intense heart break i ve ever experience. but yet, you gave me nice memories which i cant stop smiling when i recall them all.

boy, thanks for everything, good & bad. ive learn to be strong. learn to let go. im growing up now.

Labels: i love my buddy. get well soon. hes coming back in 4 days time. (:

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